Special credit goes to Caleb's 2nd uncle ... :)
Sleepless in YT ...
I think I am having a mild PND ...
Dear friends reading this, please remind me to tell my gynae abt it when I see him on the 19th ... in the meantime, trying to work round this sleep thingy and to stay positive...
"SLEEPING :
Often a depressed mother will have some form of sleeping difficulty. She may be awake until the early hours of the morning, or get no sleep at all. Some find that they sleep very fitfully and waken frequently, others that they wake in the early hours of the mrning with nightmares, and then cannot get back to sleep.
Many depressed mothers dread going to bed as their symptoms trouble them more at night. Indeed some mothers find insomnia one of the most distressing aspects of the illness. Often mothers are prescribed sleeping pills by their G.P. and find them ineffective even taken in large doses. This situation can cause the mother to feel quite desperate. If the depression is treated normal sleep will be restored.
The feeding requirements of a young baby do not help a mother who is having sleeping difficulties. It can be of great benefit if someone else can feed the baby at night." ~ Taken from a website...
Journey thus far ...
Yes .... mummy and baby kwee have finally progressed to week 40 :)
during this time, mummy and papa kwee had fought off ah tho, who had insisted that we delivered baby kwee by c-section on 21/6/2008 ... his reason is that baby kwee is in transverse lie position, mummy's placenta is low lying and the op is going to be dangerous and mummy has to go for c-section with GA! there goes all our desire for natural birth down the drain ...
even though mummy requested for time to think about it, ah tho said that he cannot wait ... duh!!!
thankfully, papa kwee insisted that we should seek a second opinion and hence, we went to see ah. paul ... ah paul is quite nice - he tried to turn baby kwee to a head down position - well, he went down but he came up again ...
on the next visit, we told ah paul that baby kwee has turned back and is still in transverse lie position ... ah paul kept quiet abt it but he is supportive ... he said, let's wait and see what happened ...
so, on the 38th week visit, we went back - baby kwee is still transverse and ah paul tried to turn him again ...and down he went but shortly later, he came up ... (I think baby kwee is trying to be funny here) ...
last week (week 39), we met ah paul again ... and i think he is 'disturbed' as to why baby kwee kept turning back to his usual position (hmm, from what i had gathered, babies after going through ECV - the process of turning him downwards - usually do not go back to their previous position unless there is some reason). he had earlier suggested that he turned the baby and then induced me but looking at how fast baby kwee turned back, i think we both know that this option is not viable and since we are nearing the 40 weeks and ah paul will be away from the 7th to 14th ... i think we both felt that it is best that we get him out via c-section... after all, i dun want to risk both our lives that my water bag burst before the contraction comes (implication is that the umbilical cord will drop out first)and get outselves into the unnecessary situation of an emergency delivery ...and ah paul not being around ...
but even though we are doing c-section, he is still supportive of natural birth ... coz he said we can do c-section with epidural so that papa kwee can participate in the labour process :)(hmmm, i think i will change my birth plan ...)
next up will be the date of the delivery ... he let me chose the day as he said he does operation every other day ... and so, we decided on 3/7/08 ... i guess it can't be a more perfect timing ... and on the 2/7/08, we arranged to have him take a look at baby kwee - yea, hoping that baby kwee will turn head down on 2/7/08 ... haha
hmm, do pray for us .... i am now getting into the seat of a roller coaster ride ... hahahaha
p.s i am happy that we had held on for so long ... hmm, the rest of the matters, i just leave it to God to guide us through ....
PUPPP
contrary to wat i had tot earlier, my PUPPP is still lurking around ... this time, it has taken another form ... instead of bubbly dots, what i am having now seems like a bad scar resulting from a fall :(
yesterday while taking an afternoon nap, i had scratched my left hand ... it now has a scar and now, on the same spot BUT on my right hand, it is starting to itch as well ...
seems like it will be symmetrical ... :(
will i be scarred for life???
Things to do before popping ...
1. clear my work ... (heh, i am not banking on clearing it 100% but at least some of it...)
2. take leave and go for high tea
3. pedicure ... prob this sunday :)
4. watch sex and the city ... have not stepped into a cinema in a loong time
5. eat pop corn while watching sex and the city (ya, blame it on the radio i was listening to which kept talking abt pop corn)
6. go ikea ... and have meat balls, hot dog buns ... wahaha ...
... hmmm, can't think of any more at the moment ...
Clearing up
Yea ... some good news ... my PUPPP is clearing up ... at least I am not scratching myself all red and I am not applying the cream twice a day ...
still feel the itch on my ankles and legs sometimes ... but not that much of an outbreak now .....
the scars are still visible though ....
hmmm, hope they will disappear soon ... :)
35 weeks ...
35 weeks and Baby Caleb is still not engaged.
Ah Tho said I may need a C-Section. :( Told me that the date would tentatively be set on 21/6/2008.
hmmm, not very happy coz he did not explain why baby's head is not turning... he is not giving me explanations to convince me why i should go for c-section ... what happens in my next pregnancy - c-section again? (ok, thinking too far ahead here ...) but he should at least explain and set my heart at ease as to why I must undergo C-section ...
haiz..... going to sleep